Thursday, April 30, 2009

i'm really sorry

I LOST MY AUDREY HEPBURN PENCIL CASE.
IF ANYONE HAPPENS TO SEE IT, PLEASE RETURN OK.

i'm moving house in 3months time. i hate it, i really hate it. 5years in Orchid Park. 5years of solid memories. i don't understand why we have to move. sucks to be the daughter of a property agent. sucks to be me. i'm gonna put up this v v emo post about Orchid Park and all the lovely times i've spent there with so many people i'll frigging miss my room crap i'll miss so much :( i really dont want to move.

my life is supposed to be sucky but i'm feeling happy now and i dont know why ha ha okay going for a picnic with og now!!! pictures soon for the whole weekend!
love^^

Saturday, April 25, 2009

you could be happy

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this was yesterday.. we played murderer under the void deck. haha. i love 4/5. i'm so tired.. met cherie around midnight at the airport to study. she spent the whole night with me and if we count the sleeping time, she spent the whole of today with me too. love you okay. anyway, intermediate korean class started today. there's this angmoh guy attending the class heehee my new teacher was crap the whole lesson wasnt even fruitful i thought we spent most of the time listening to her weird jokes instead >.<
i feel like the living dead. i'm so so tired. i havent been eating the last time i remembered eating breakfast or lunch was 5days ago? and i cant seem to finish my dinner either. i'm sorry for acting this way. i'm sorry for being so weak, i really am trying. give me more time.. i know you love me, i know all of you love me. i'll pick myself up again, i promise. i just need a little more time.

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on loops 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go

Friday, April 17, 2009

i need to breathe.. i need to calm myself down and breathe. you arent doing me any good. this isnt doing me any good. i've never felt this way and it gets worse, it keeps getting worse.