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hehehehehe i lovv photofunia ^^

i can't believe its going to be christmas in 2 days. time passes so fast! i'm really excited about christmas this year, even though i couldnt convince anyone to buy a christmas tree for me. its so unfair that people living in some other countries get to use real coniferous trees for christmas and i can't even get a fake one. i'm really getting into the festive mood. i think this is the first year i actually wrap presents for people on my own :P i'm spending christmas morning in hann's church, lunch at ahma's house and dinner with kang jin. poor boy is bummed about the fact that his missing a white christmas in korea. The last time they had a white christmas was when he was 14 ha ha now he is 21 and he is spending christmas in singapore with me!! Its really hard getting into the mood for christmas in Singapore because its so hot, it never snows and all we have are fake christmas trees. but its been like these for me for 17 years so i'll just have to make do~ christmas is my favourite time of the year, i can't wait ^^

“ I just don’t know if i wanna do it anymore, get close to somebody so they can leave again. ”

- One Tree Hill

you're an amazing guy, really. we dont even need to communicate effectively for me to know it. the last person i ever want to hurt is you. because you dont deserve anything like that, you dont deserve all the sadness or pain you've experienced. i want to be there for you, i want to make you happy, except i dont think its up to me. i dont think i've the capacity. i'm afraid that all i'll do is lead you on. i dont even know what i want for myself. how can i love anyone?

i wonder what you tell her. i wonder if they're the same things you used to tell me. i wonder if i still cross your mind when you're with her

i haven't logged in for so long i had to try a few passwords before i was able to log in :P

i've been shopping the whole week its time for me to catch up with all my friends but i dont think i've met anyone except sarah, si min and kang jin after promos ended :/ the ones in jc are busy mugging now and the ones in poly are either overseas or working :( i need to meet everyone!! i havent met mel, py and hann in ages >.< i'm going to meet lydia and zengan next week oh heehee i think i'm going to meet everyone next week. next week will be a good week^^ hahaha anyway i hope everyone end their promos and everyone overseas will come back soon so we can all meet up.

i'm not so emo now. i think studying really makes me feel like my life is 100 times worse than it actually is. i think i'd pretty badly for promos but thats okay, i did my best and if i dont do well enough to promote, i'll just go to poly next year with sarah :P i've been really happy slacking. i just napped finish :/ went to the night safari with kang jin last night and i felt like a tourist^^
okay i want to go to all the tourist places in singapore with him so i can pretend i'm korean hahaha :P