you picked me

One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine

And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down

And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

should've known you'd bring me heartache

sianpei obviously came over eariler.. i was such a wreck. tear-stained face, greasy hair, specs, and in the attire i went to sleep with last night. this is what happens to shermaine tan when she stays home alone for more than half a day. i was moping around my room.. trying not to think trying not to feel upset trying hard to distract myself. i didnt even finish my e learning. this is pathetic but i cant stand being alone anymore its like i've to keep being around someone to feel safe. anyway, sianpei and i did some clearing. i went through everything i used to had with kj and everything he wrote and DIDNT FULFILL, dumped it in a plastic bag and threw it all away today. i deleted whatever pictures there was in my computer i blocked and deleted his contact off msn this is supposed to be a freakng achievement but i dont feel any better. i wonder what will. the first time he ditched me i tried being a bitch was all revengeful but it didnt work out it didnt make me feel good either this time i'm gonna try shutting out the existence of him in of my life. i'm a tiny bit glad that we're moving, so i wouldnt have to go thru the pains of walking through my condo every night and imagining both of us sitting at the bench near the playground near the pool i'll miss park kang and super reds like crazy but i can always visit. so okay, moving will be good. i've to start getting used to changes because i truely understand now how things and people can change so fast,change so much.

i'm glad i've got God. i'll just have to keep thinking.. i'm not alone i wouldnt be alone i'm in right hands tell myself everything will be okay because i've got Him. what else can i possibly ask for.. He'll give me whats best for me, all i have to do is wait. wait. i'm not going to pretend i'm happy now but i'm not going to spend time moping about and degrading myself wishing this hadnt happen to me anymore. be strong shermaine, be strong. its terribly hard now, but i will make it, i will make it.

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL, I LOVE YOU(:

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that Easy to walk right in and out of my life?

wasting too much

my new home? its just a part of it but the whole place is really gorgeous its at serangoon and its near my school its near chomp chomp its right next to the new mrt ohman i think i fell in love with the house already. i really hope dad manages to get it!!

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i think this weekend made up for the days i skipped my meals. buddy hoagies on thursday,breeks yesterday, japanese food at cityhall today. meeting mel, hann, py for dinner tmr as well!! heehe

i havent been studying but i'm not feeling guilty. i'll catch up sometime soon when i'm up for it and if i dont, God will provide(: & i can always go poly next year >.<

my family and i are having this huge fight over where to move to. kns. i want them to get another unit in orchid park. my sis wants to move into a flat, i want a condo and its not because i'm more spoilt! my bro wants to live at amk ok we all want to live at amk cos its near everywhere but the condos there r v expensive i think.. SUCKS. all this hassle and for what?? i wouldve stayed at orchid park forever -unless theres a chance for me to live in korea.

every memory of you, etched in my mind.

p.s. to xxx: please come online soon!! ^^

i'm really sorry

I LOST MY AUDREY HEPBURN PENCIL CASE.

IF ANYONE HAPPENS TO SEE IT, PLEASE RETURN OK.

i'm moving house in 3months time. i hate it, i really hate it. 5years in Orchid Park. 5years of solid memories. i don't understand why we have to move. sucks to be the daughter of a property agent. sucks to be me. i'm gonna put up this v v emo post about Orchid Park and all the lovely times i've spent there with so many people i'll frigging miss my room crap i'll miss so much :( i really dont want to move.

my life is supposed to be sucky but i'm feeling happy now and i dont know why ha ha okay going for a picnic with og now!!! pictures soon for the whole weekend!

love^^

you could be happy

this was yesterday.. we played murderer under the void deck. haha. i love 4/5. i'm so tired.. met cherie around midnight at the airport to study. she spent the whole night with me and if we count the sleeping time, she spent the whole of today with me too. love you okay. anyway, intermediate korean class started today. there's this angmoh guy attending the class heehee my new teacher was crap the whole lesson wasnt even fruitful i thought we spent most of the time listening to her weird jokes instead >.<

i feel like the living dead. i'm so so tired. i havent been eating the last time i remembered eating breakfast or lunch was 5days ago? and i cant seem to finish my dinner either. i'm sorry for acting this way. i'm sorry for being so weak, i really am trying. give me more time.. i know you love me, i know all of you love me. i'll pick myself up again, i promise. i just need a little more time.

You could be happy and I won't know

But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said

Are played on loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were

But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure

I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are

You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you

And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to

Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go

i need to breathe.. i need to calm myself down and breathe. you arent doing me any good. this isnt doing me any good. i've never felt this way and it gets worse, it keeps getting worse.