i'm really sorry

I LOST MY AUDREY HEPBURN PENCIL CASE.

IF ANYONE HAPPENS TO SEE IT, PLEASE RETURN OK.

i'm moving house in 3months time. i hate it, i really hate it. 5years in Orchid Park. 5years of solid memories. i don't understand why we have to move. sucks to be the daughter of a property agent. sucks to be me. i'm gonna put up this v v emo post about Orchid Park and all the lovely times i've spent there with so many people i'll frigging miss my room crap i'll miss so much :( i really dont want to move.

my life is supposed to be sucky but i'm feeling happy now and i dont know why ha ha okay going for a picnic with og now!!! pictures soon for the whole weekend!

love^^

you could be happy

this was yesterday.. we played murderer under the void deck. haha. i love 4/5. i'm so tired.. met cherie around midnight at the airport to study. she spent the whole night with me and if we count the sleeping time, she spent the whole of today with me too. love you okay. anyway, intermediate korean class started today. there's this angmoh guy attending the class heehee my new teacher was crap the whole lesson wasnt even fruitful i thought we spent most of the time listening to her weird jokes instead >.<

i feel like the living dead. i'm so so tired. i havent been eating the last time i remembered eating breakfast or lunch was 5days ago? and i cant seem to finish my dinner either. i'm sorry for acting this way. i'm sorry for being so weak, i really am trying. give me more time.. i know you love me, i know all of you love me. i'll pick myself up again, i promise. i just need a little more time.

You could be happy and I won't know

But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said

Are played on loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were

But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure

I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are

You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you

And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to

Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go

i need to breathe.. i need to calm myself down and breathe. you arent doing me any good. this isnt doing me any good. i've never felt this way and it gets worse, it keeps getting worse.

it'll be okay

ask me online if any of you want the speech day pictures and can't get it on facebook. i'm too lazy to upload all!!!

all glory to You

i have a lot of thoughts in my mind right now.. and i really want to spill them out. i'm sitting here all sweaty from track and not bathed HA HA with my PI for project work due tomorrow!! but nevermind that.. i need this.

sajc has not been very nice to me. truth is, i cannot stand my class.

i know i chosed this school over masscomm, i know i should be thankful because i had choices. plenty of them. the thing is, i wake up every morning and ask myself, what are you doing. why are you even here. lots and lots of what ifs. i called ngeeann up yesterday to ask if it was alright to go for an interview. they don't accept anymore applications :( i'm holding on by faith alone. seriously. i can get close to tears during school simply because i cannot fit in. they are all surface friends.. and its so hard because 4/5 used to be wonderful. they tell me that i need time, but at this rate, i dont really see how i can relate to them or even go beyond the surface. its not like i didn't try.. its. i dont know. WE JUST CANNOT CLICK. and its not the no i dont trust you enough because i dont know you yet kinda thing, but the i really have nothing much to say to you kind of thing!! sighh i really am dreading these two years with the class..

about holding on by faith alone, i guess its true, that i'm struggling so as to fulfill Your purpose for me in this school. mold me then, give me strength. i cannot do this on my own.

you make me happy everyday. i love you(:

ha HA okk my week was awesome i wish i had all the time in the world to put up a picture post for the whole week but seriously!! school is driving me crazy.. i will when i have the time.

ok goodnight to all the nice koreans in the world..

ok.. goodnight ^^

you're such a pain in the ass.