selflessness

as much as i love visiting, receiving angbaos and eating, cny this year was so tiring. for ahma especially. she hurt her thumb from all that cooking for two days in a row. i'm so proud to be her granddaughter because out of practically all the elders i know, she's the only one who takes so much pride in her cooking.. even at the age of 80 odd. we're lucky because every year at her place, we get to eat abalone, sharkfin, meesua and all the delicious food she prepares by herself. all that effort.. just so we can have a good meal every cny.

looking at her weary face yesterday made me realise a lot. i cannot regret.. i cannot end up like that, regretting about our lost time when its her turn to leave this earth. my grandparents are really important to me. whats left to do now is to cherish them, cherish her. in time to come, there'll be so much memories of us together that i'd be contented, even when they're gone.

ok. on a lighter note, i still want my grandparents to live for a long long time. so touch wood if this post meant that my grandparents may not to be around soon!!!!

i dont want to chose.